Tuesday, 10 January 2012

2 Months Old


 2 months old? Already? I don't like this one bit! 
As you know Milo has suffered with colic and acid reflux. He's still not great and his sleeping is hit and miss but we do get the occasional good nights sleep (by current standards). In the last month he has been pushing himself up to stand against up , grabbing everything he can and is finally enjoying bath time. To soothe him we often use white noise such as the hairdryer.. in fact as I type this he is being lulled to sleep by a genius app playing him the sounds of a doppler.. what will they think of next? He is consistently taking 6oz bottles and is hungry all the time.. I can't wait to wean him on to solids.. I'm sure that will be the key to him sleeping through the night. He's just a very hungry boy. Ella absolutely loves him, she has infinite patience when we have none and will sing to him even when he is screaming at the top of his lungs. He's a serious headbutter, has been since he was born but recently he seems to have motive... he split my lip the other day.. I'm still not sure what I did to deserve it. I'm considering putting him in his own room.. everyone else seems to think it a great idea as he's a fidgety sleeper and I get him up when perhaps he would have slept through had i not heard him. I'm just not quite ready to let go.. he's too lickle!! Everyone is getting regular smiles now which makes his screaming fits a lot more tolerable.. it's very hard to stay made at him when he's so very cute. his eyes are still very blue. Brown is the norm for my family but Lee has green eyes.. they can take up to 6 months apparently to be the colour they will be forever but I'm hoping for green.. he already looks so much like his Dad I'd be really surprised if he didn't get that from him too. 


Overall month 2 has been the hardest so far and I'd really like it to remain that way. He will be teething before we know it and I'd like a little respite before then. My Mum has kindly offered to take him off our hands every Friday (thanks Mum) which we obviously jumped at so we do get one unbroken night of sleep a week and in all honesty I don't know how I'd survive without it. Lee's a huge help but I don't like him to do too much during the week as he works long hours and that's the whole point of maternity leave, isn't it? I know he feels like he should be doing more though which is tough for him. Hopefully Milo will get easier soon so life can get one step closer to normal again.

Miss BB

Friday, 6 January 2012

Bump - Before and After


MORNING MILO WAS BORN
3 DAYS AFTER BIRTH
10 DAYS AFTER BIRTH

6 WEEKS AFTER BIRTH

Milo is nearly 8 weeks old. I was going to continue this post baby belly pictures and post this when I was totally back to my former shape but I think instead I am going to do before and after pictures from next week. As of right now I have done zero exercise to banish the bulge but am finally feeling up to it so from 8 weeks on I am on a mission. We have a vacation booked for 18th March and I WILL be in a bikini by the pool. That's just over 2 months away so it will be tough but I first wanted to share how much I shrunk down naturally for those worrying about gettin their figures back post pregnancy. I have just over a stone to shed to be back to pre-Milo weight but I'm not too worried about that.. more about the wobbly bits really.

Wish me luck!

Miss BB

Acid Reflux


Having never suffered from reflux as an adult I wasn't prepared for it in my baby. He was so fidgety and crying from nowhere, he went from perfect to far from it in about a week and we had no idea what was going on. We took him to the doctors who deducted he had Acid Reflux. He is worst in the evenings, though thankfully not at night (yet) and is more likely to be sick after laying flat. She prescribed infant Gaviscon (powder sachets to go in his milk) and suggested we keep him upright during feeding and as long as possible afterwards. At first his symptoms got better, I'd say almost immediately, he was a joy to have again.. and then they got worse. About a week in to taking the Gaviscon his uncomfortable evenings of inconsolable crying and sickness were back. That was at about 6 weeks I'd say and only now (nearly 2 weeks on) can I see a light at the end of the tunnel. The past few days he's been so sleepy, he still has his moments but he's easier to comfort and a lot less sick, he's no longer draining his bottle and is not crying for it as often as he was. I've concluded that he was having a growth spurt. He's absolutely massive now compared to just a few weeks ago and I vaguely remember the phases of constant hunger and being too tired to sleep from Ella being small. I hope to come back to you in a week and be singing his praises once more because the last few weeks have just killed us. My Mum has very kindly offered to take him off our hands every Friday night while we need her to (uuh.. forever?) and so I will leave you with just 4 letters...

TGIF

Miss BB

Friday, 30 December 2011

How I Healed

Day One

You can see my post on the birth here. Even within half an hour of the surgery I started to regain some feeling in my incision. It was a little tingly and the midwife topped me up with pain relief. My catheter leaked so I had to have it removed and go to the toilet myself earlier than I'd anticipated. Standing left me feeling sick and light-headed, it hurt to stand, it hurt to walk but if I lay down I felt relief.

Day Two

The second day was possibly the worst. The pain relief was Diclofenac (or Voltarol) which is more anti-inflammatory than pain killer so it took time for that to start working. I was taking Paracetamol along with it and Oral Morphine as and when the pain got too much. I didn't take as much as I could have and that definitely contributed to this being the worst day. Sometimes you don't know you need it until you need to move and by that time it's too late.

Day Three

We were discharged from hospital after two nights so the second half of day three was at home. I hadn't realised that Dicolfenac was not a strong pain killer so I wasn't taking my Paracetamol. I've always kind of thought Paracetamol didn't do anything for me so I assumed it wouldn't make a difference if I skipped it.. I was wrong! I slept propped up on the sofa downstairs to avoid having to get out of bed and using my stomach muscles.

Day Four

Sleeping on the sofa.. not a good idea! Today my back may have been the most painful thing.. which at least distracted me from my incision. My milk also came in today so now I have nowhere comfortable to hold Milo.

Day Five

Feels like I've turned a corner pain-wise today. I'm much more comfortable getting up from the sofa and have just about got the knack of getting out of bed now. I roll on to my side and push myself up.. I'm catching my stomach muscles less and less. I laughed this evening and it hurt so much I cried. If I can avoid straining my stomach it's really not that bad.

Day Six

Went to my parents for Sunday Lunch. The car ride was 100% more comfortable than the ride home from the hospital. I felt no pain going over bumps in the road, I was more nervous than anything. I felt able to walk up and down stairs, my back ache came in around 2pm and at night I was pretty bad. I think I over did it.

Day Seven

I am feeling fine during the day and moving around comfortably but at night time I feel totally different. From 5pm onward I want to lie down. I sneezed and forgot myself so didn't hold my incision. Most painful thing I've done so far! I had to check to make sure I was still intact. All was fine but boy that hurt!

Day Eight

Today I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm feeling good during the day.. I can't stand for too long but I'm pretty comfortable and at night I still feel good. I got up in the night with Milo and felt fine. That's the first time, usually getting up in the night is the worst as I'm stiff from being immobile in my sleep. I really feel just so much better today.

Day Nine

Today my tummy is really tender above my incision. I can only think that's the internal bruising. the bruising around my incision site is really bad so I can't imagine what it's like on the inside. We went out shopping and I wasn't too uncomfortable. I was achey from walking for a long time but didn't take any pain relief until bedtime. - Shaved my legs in the shower today. Can't believe I was able to already!

Day Ten

We went to register Milo's birth and to the hospital for his hearing test and then to the supermarket. Everything is easier now. I can use my tummy muscles a little, I don't have that stinging, burning sensation when I catch them and getting out of bed is a breeze compared to a few days ago. I'm still bleeding but it feels like that's coming to an end too. I'm starting to feel like myself again.

Day Eleven

My tummy is still sore but not really around the incision site so I think it's internal. Feels like I've been kicked repeatedly in the stomach. Not pleasant but still 100x better than I thought I'd feel 2 weeks on. I can get in and out of bed and move around easily and was up with Milo every time he woke in the night without needing help so was able to give Lee a decent nights sleep.

Day Twelve

I'm starting to get some pain back around my incision site. I'm not sure if I've been overdoing it or perhaps I'm regaining some feeling where before I was numb. I've been laughing A LOT which may sound like a good thing but effectively I'm hammering my wound from the inside and I can't see if that's doing any damage which is scary but I'm nervous that may be why I'm feeling it again.

Day Thirteen

Still sore but not so much I can't get around. Took Ella to school and picked her up with Milo by myself today. Torrential downpour didn't help! I thought I'd stopped bleeding but it's back and worse than when I left the hospital. I don't know if that's normal or if it's related to feeling my incision again but it's worrying me a little.On the plus side by scar is looking really good. Already better than my first, it's amazing.

Day Fourteen

My skin on my tummy is still tender but it feels like it's getting better. My incision is still sore, worst on the left side which is where it hurt most after the operation. I can comfortably hold my incision and it feels good to support it. I haven't laid on my front yet (scared) but I lay on my side and it feels better when I lay on the left which again I think is about support. Fingers crossed I'm still on track and healing.

Day Fifteen

Inside pains seem to be improving as does the skin tenderness. It's definitely helping to rest. I'm pretty sure I overdid it when I started to feel better so an FYI for all of you reading this for info before your C-Section.. you need to keep resting as long as you can.. If you do too much too soon you will slow down the healing process. Milk has nearly stopped and bleeding is still going strong :(

Day Nineteen

Last night we went out for dinner while Milo was with my Mum. I was feeling good for the most part but I'm definitely not ready for heels yet. I'm not sure why but it really seemed to put strain on my tummy walking in heels. That and the shivering (it was freezing) you wouldn't believe how much that hurt.. it's basically loads of involuntary muscle spasms... not pleasant. All in all.. I'm not doing well taking it easy.

Day Twenty One

My lower tummy is still uber tender and sensitive. It hurts even for soft material to brush over it. It must be really bruised under the skin is all I can think it is. I did manage to have a bath today and finally get all my steri-strips off. Neither hurt, I was worried about nothing. Starting to look a bit more like me. My scar is already 100% better than my first which is incredible and I think the bleeding might be stopping.

Day Twenty Three

I've been a bit stupid today, I may or may not have moved a heavy sofa and a bed... on my own. I moved them all the way out of the house.. not smart! I've been feeling fine and even since then I don't feel like I've done any damage or anything but when I got out of the bath I noticed a teeny tiny bit of white goo on the right side of my scar. It wiped away with a cotton bud and doesn't seem to be oozing or anything so I'm not sure.. it may just have been the remnants of a scab..either way it spooked me.. it's only 3 weeks since I had major abdominal surgery.. why can't I just rest like a normal person? In other news.. still heavy bleeding and skins still sore, dry and flakey. I only noticed the gunk because I was oiling my tummy.

Day Twenty Five

No more gunk so I'm assuming what I saw was a healing scab after all. My tummy is still very sore but not my incision. It's just above it and below my belly button, I've read online it may be that I'm regaining feeling there were it was previously numb because the nerves are cut. That and the still very heavy bleeding are the two things I can't wait to get better. No internal/scar site pain at all at the moment.


Day Twenty Eight

My tummy has shrunk considerably.. I can near enough suck it all in now so my uterus must be almost back to its original size (they say 6 weeks) Bleeding is now what I'd consider "normal" for a monthly bleed so it may be coming to an end.. thank god! Skin is still tender but I think  it's improving.. hard to measure. When I sneeze the left size of my scar has started to sting again.. not sure if that's good or bad but I'm trying not to sneeze. Otherwise feeling good.


Day Thirty Two

The bleeding has FINALLY stopped. The burning pain I had got back on the left side of my scar has gone completely now. My tummy is still sore to put pressure but my tender skin is feeling 50% better. My line nigra seems to have started fading too, I was getting concerned it might be permanent

Day Thirty Five

Bleeding again.. awesome! I'm hoping this is a monthly bleed now.. we'll see in a few days. On the right side of my scar I have a dent (really hard to describe) I've looked online for a similar picture but can't find anything so I may have to put one up if it stays as it is. One side is fairly smooth and the other looks like I have a wedge of tummy above my scar. Very weird! It's reduced A LOT  over the last couple of weeks so I'm hoping it's still swollen and will go away but I never had anything like it the first time.

Day Thirty Eight

Bleeding stopped again so I'm assuming it was aunt flow after all. I can't see any drastic improvements happening now, I think it's all just going to gradually get better over the next few months. I have no major complaints anymore I'm just generally still a bit sore but as Lee keeps reminding me it was only 6 weeks ago I had surgery.. it's normal to not feel 100% yet.. just frustrating. Because my scar looks to well already it feels like I should feel as well but there's so much going on inside that I can't see I really have no idea how close to healed I am right now. I just hope I'm back to normal for our VegasVacation in March.


I'm going to leave my How I Healed "journal" there. I hope it helps someone who's recently had or waiting for a section and interested in the stages of recovery. I looked all over for something like this when I was panicking before the operation and even since then when looking up symptoms but found nothing similar so I hope it will be of use to someone else looking for the same.


Miss BB










Tuesday, 27 December 2011

6 Weeks Old


So Milo has reflux. He visited the Doctor and was diagnosed last week. He went from being the perfect baby and sleeping all the time, feeding well, just generally better than I could have hoped for to... well.. not.  I'm glad he seems to be improving thanks to the various changes we've made and medications he's now taking but it's not the easy time he was promising when he was first born. I knew it couldn't last but deep down I really hoped it would.. I thought I'd earned a good baby after Ella was such hard work.. but no. It's really tough between Lee and I because we both have different ideas of how to deal with a baby that cries all the time and we're both tired but we're doing well to avoid conflict so far. The worst thing that could happen right now would be for us to be fighting. I can see how this kind of thing can cause problems in a relationship but I am confident we will stay strong and support each other as best we can. Communication is key!
I haven't visited the clinic to have him weighed since the midwife weighed him at 2 weeks but I weighed myself with and without him at the weekend and deduced his weight is now approx 12lbs.. 
little chunk!

Miss BB

Saturday, 24 December 2011

Merry Christmas From Milo


Can you even believe it's Christmas Eve??? Tomorrow will be my little boys first Christmas! Ella is understandably excited for Santa's visit and I for one can't wait to see what he brings them ;)
Last night they stayed away for the first time together at my parents house while we went out with friends for a meal and drinks. Milo has been so colicky recently I really needed a full nights sleep. I have been filming daily vlogs throughout december and was shocked to see how tired I look. I definitely needed to catch up on some beauty sleep. I've also seen Milo deteriorate to the point where he was diagnosed with reflux.. I'll blog about that in his 6 week update post on Tuesday! For now I'll wish you all a very Merry Christmas from Milo and our whole gang. Already excited for New Years!

Miss BB

Tuesday, 13 December 2011

4 Weeks Old


Can you believe my little  Milo bear is 4 weeks old today? I can't believe it's already  been a month yet can't believe a month ago he wasn't here. He's growing so fast (too fast) filling out his little suits and getting stronger all the time. He's more alert now and awake for longer periods of the day. He's discovered her doesn't have to be perfect and has a little cry every now and then. Still doesn't like bath time but doesn't mind so much being changed anymore. He's slept a couple of times 6hours+ through the night but it's not a regular occurrence - appreciated when it happens though. It's just 2 weeks 'til Christmas and I'm so pleased to be able to celebrate it with our new little man. This time last year we had almost given up hope of conceiving him so he's really the best gift we could have asked for.



Miss BB

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